I started reading old pages of my blog and really love seeing the pictures of Ash. My, how has he grown, and is just such a busy and fun toddler now. He was once taking 6 steps towards walking and then stopped and is finally taking two steps at a time. Today, he really worked on it.

Had a fun weekend. Took the boys to see The princess and the Frog and it's great fun. When the toothless lightning bug died and they gave him a traditional New Orleans March of goodbye with all the other lightning bugs I just lost it! It was so cute. A fun movie to see over and over again. Spent lots of time playing Playstation with Jax and I am definately an addicted. Went to church. My friend Emily and Lindsay came over. I ate some sugar. Emily brought over some nudie brownies and I had some! I don't regret it. It was gooooood.

Weird to see how fast Jax has grown in the last 15 months. I came across this that I wrote and can see and taste that exact moment. It was right before Ash was born and it was a perfect Fall day.


Reading "The Seat of The Soul"
for the third time in a row
I sit on the edge of Papa's field
watching Forest run up and down,
back and forth in pure delight, then spoiled,
bug infested apples and pears darting thru the air in
every direction. Fruit guts all over clothes and hands, what life is about.
Papa shaking his head in disgust but loving the freedom five years old still possess.
Butterbiggins surfing back and forth in my stomach and I watch multicolor leaves
falling and just beyond and around the corner "Ole Man Winter" is whispering "I am almost here".
Soon Frosty the Snowman and Ruldolph will be on and no longer will Jax and I just be "us".
Soon another baby to add to my family, to love, to snuggle to have suckling on my breast.
Weird to think.
Now a fire sending smoke signals to the universe and burning leaves takes my mind to
Chinese Honey's,
block parties
big Christmas'
Mom making good food, seasonal foods that make you love life,
missing those hands, the hands that Natalie has,
missing Mom's smile, her beautiful white hair,
the wood stove stocked full of blazing heat,
memories quickly forgotten as a toothless smile is standing before me
with grass stains and nature all over him and a huge water bottle, filled with
naughtiness from papa about to be squirted on me.
Threats of "Don't you dare" are ignored and the laughter of my "bird" is carried off in the wind and the leaves as they drift away and I am happy and content.

How my life has changed even since then.

What I am thankful for today:

Emily and Lindsay
Nudie Brownies
Ashton's laughter
warm weather
friends who love me
warm clothes from a dryer